Saturday, July 18, 2009'♥
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Understanding Physics/Independent Will
There's physics Olympiad training today. The teacher told us that we are going to cover all the 'O' and 'A' level syllabus for physics plus some university topics, within 4 sessions! It is rather ridiculous and it is the first time that I have gone through such a bulletspeend lecture that I learn very little after the 2h session. I felt very disturbed that I cannot understand at all, though I understand a little that others don't, and felt quite high and exhilarated, not because that I am sadistic and like it when others are below, it's just that it can defeat the assertion that I am naturally slow, lols.
But as I think through, everyone should be able to understand any difficult concept, if they have the right attitude, in a short time. Our intelligence may differ from one another, but if you see, it isn;t significant. So stop saying that you are slow, when you don;t even try. I am sure that those people who can understand had tried hard.
And through the physics beyond the syllabus, I start to see the beauty and purpose of everything else, like trigonometry, differentiation and geometry, because they are so often used in the abstract physics, and they are essential too! I regretted not knowing some concepts earlier. It was only today that I realised whatever force we exerted on anything, the same amount is exerted back and you had to overcome it to move it, and many common ideas, that I had also see and understand it in the wrong way in the past. I really love physics and mathematics, especially!
Then the teacher share with us that usually those Ip school will have a higher percentage of students winning the medals because they are more prepared, given the best resources and talents and time. So unfair. But then, I also believe in self-study and self-read, lols, I should have been determined to read beyond our syllabus years ago!
At home, I eat a lot, while I'm against my soul and conscience. Just for one moment of exhilaration, I suffered quite a lot with intense pain of stomache and discomfort, should have listen to my inner voice.
Then while thinking it was quite unfair for those Ip school to gain so much, I start to think about the environment too. It seem that those parent who are committed, witty and capable often produce better children. Such that my mother ofter cook so much and coerced me to eat to satisfy her, and I was growing fat as a result. And my family, in my opinion, often give up easily in hard times. i was wondering if I could be influenced by them negatively. But then I make my own choice and is endowed by independent will, so I am responsible for what ever that happen to me.
Don't blame anymore,
I decided to write out my first draft of personal mission statement by tomorrow and buy five notebooks to motivate myself to observe, read, write, research and learn beyond the four walls of the classroom. My life is beyond 'O' level, academics, passions, relationships or kinship.
I would want to explore other interests like psychology, economics, wisdom literature and philosophy, apart from languages, mathematics, sciences and humanities beyond the syllabus. I also want to record my experiences and write and review to have better self-awareness and gain new insights and learn!I want to learn a new concept/theory of any category, new vocabulary everyday! I will write down too.Of course, I don't just study, I find time to discover myself, build stronger relationships and strengthen my other athletic, artistic or life-skills talents.Life is one whole piece, synergise it! My everyday would be so fulfilled and meaningfully enjoyable.This way life will be fulfilled and a sense of fulfillment will replace the haunting emptiness.
My promise for myself on a daily basis:
1. Will communicate with my soul, visualise and record my reflections and experiences.
2. Will spend at least 1h to strengthen my concept and practise in mathematics.
3. Will learn at least 5 new words/phrases in English and Chinese each.
4. Will think through and enhance understanding of an abstract concept in various field daily, not restricted to the syllabus. Learn a new concept every week (at least).
5. Will revise my works and ensures that I'll on the right track to EOY- practise and do whatever it is required for my 10A1s, make it a daily effort.
6. Plan weekly and spend some time reading motivational book.
7. Above all, I aimed to fulfilled my other committments apart from my academics, like my ccas and piano, physical and social development.Understanding Physics/Independent Will
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