Friday, June 26, 2009'♥
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Social/Emotional Intelligence Deficiency~
" I was thinking of doing this that night. But when I woke up, I realised it's been just but a dream, but somehow it takes something else more to materialise it."I was very frustrated this morning because my room has been occupied. I was
seldom so petty but it was just because I was so stressed up but I still cant finish my homework today. There's still maths, bio and
English left, so I chased my guest away, I was very rude, I know. No wonder, people can hate me.
I have the opportunity to know people just like that who
don't care about anything else and believe that they should remain the way as they are though frequently disliked due to one's
insensitivity. I used to hate these kind of people though I faced them most often. But I realised that I was just like one of them. So, they are actually acting as my mirror, seeing others in myself. Then I realised that this world
doesn't allow man to be an island and that we should try to
accommodate others.
Sometimes, I'm just lost, I just
don't know what to do in certain situation. That's okay, I will listen. I still can feel.
" See others in myself, See myself in others"I am very critical of myself right now. When I scanned those evidence that cannot be mistaken in
msn history, I realised that I'm so whatever. (my vocab is limited to describe it :P) It's not just
msn, maybe I have been doing it in normal conversations. I don't mean all of it, just a few. I'm just disgusted at myself when I tried to look at myself from others' perspective- no wonder... I will like hate myself if I see myself in your perspective. Only a few people who truly understand me won't, because they know I'm like that. I should have known. I'm just easily misunderstood upon the first or second or even third impression, how do I change myself...... I wonder?
I will have to be more sensitive, and doing the right thing at the right time. I have to consider and allow for your own spectrum of openness and freedom of privacy. I wont probe. I wont force things out. I wont do things you don't like me to.I hope I can won't be so easily misunderstood in the future (:
Lols, I believe that I will make it- simply because you have no idea how much you matter to me~
(
Btw, anybody can help me edit my post, as in my language problem,
hahas XD)
And
yah, went to the gym at 8am (: , but yesterday was better. And I found out that training physically can improve my willpower and concentration, I can study much better,
yay!
But if you would like me to choose between jogging for 5km and studying for 5h, I would choose the latter, because I had done it far much longer and better that it become easier, and hopefully my second nature~Social/Emotional Intelligence Deficiency~
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