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Thursday, July 16, 2009'♥

dark love ♥

Emptiness

Probably is not going to study in class anymore.... cos I got disturbed by haozhe in class, I chased after him for don't know how long for my handphone, think I should have catch him but was tired laughing. He then keep joking about my sms, lols. And Mars gang up with him to bully me -.- lols this was yesterday. Then yog teach me damm long for one question and then the physics olympiad training, so fun! Really very enthu for physics leh!

Then the china ppl come to our class and seating arrangement change a little. did not get the opportunity to change my seat but new ppl are seating besides me (:

And... I don;t know if I'm faking stupid or naturally slow... I think I'm both la. Because i can grab concept easily after understanding it but I have to know how.... but something that just no explanation -.-

I'm feeling weird today, very empty, as if I'm not a living thing.

Think I'm psycho, can tell what a person is thinking after observing their actions and expressions. But the irony is that I don't know myself that well. Aint aware of myself.

Went to confront someone, maybe I shouldn't in the first place...

Homeworks still pilling up...

Inexplicably came an intense feeling of longing and a mixture of euphoria and depression,
Transcending into various forms, till beyond recognition and description,
It come and go, and just haunts me, as if I have to do something to soothe it,
A distorted past, A passionate, sustainable love, An unshakeable desire, A destined route,
Emptiness can't be filled, life just seems unfulfilled, no matter I dump how much of my savings,
Will step forward anyway, so fearlessly... then,
And so my real journey began this way, looking for you still
Smiling ever so, I'll face it all, and do it anyway.

I'm feeling exhilarated when you walk with me,
Till the end, the mutual feelings so undeniable,
An extraodinary friendship that will last till eternity,
A passionate and compassionate love with unfanthomable emotions,
A predestined attachment, that can't be break away.

So together we walk, even spiritually, I don't seem to mind,
Because you are non-existent though your presence is felt,
Oh, why is it just an illusion, that felts so real...
Because I have been deceiving myself all along,
There's just me on the path and nobody else.

That's when the emptiness came,
But principles had filled it again,
It doesn't matter if I'm alone,
For I lead my own life,
So gladly that I still look up to you.

Later did I realised that I am actually with my own soul,
And can will I find my soulmates anyway,
Maybe, maybe, life is that funny,
You are quite fun to walk with, huh?

blogged @ 9:38 PM

Emptiness

1Comments:

At August 9, 2009 at 7:17 PM, Marcus Quek said...: raaar. maybe u should just ignore haozhe and me. i mean, he will definitely return ur phone sooner or later...